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I’ve been stretched over Elizabeth’s back. She tried to flip me over, but I was drunk and pretty much dead weight. I let out a humph. That was at the Sonic Youth concert where they were presenting Thurston’s Bridal with the album Goo.

I got to that point from leaving the crowd in front of the stage. I was feeling sick and thought I needed some air. As I left the stage area the crowd thinned out. I thought about what my sister had told me; that she liked getting felt up in crowds. I saw Elizabeth out in the open and went toward her. The crowd is a pushy contact sort of experience and I don’t think I adjusted to the lesser. So when she saw me coming towards her, she took my arm combatively and tried to flip me over her back.

I met Elizabeth again in Seattle, Washington at Community House Mental Health. We talked indirectly about the Goo concert. She knows me socially and knows a lot about medications. The doorman was also at Community House. His area of expertise was employment. He remembered me because I talked to him right before getting kicked out of the Goo concert.

The bouncer took me to the doorman by dragging me backwards by my heels. I said to him,  “I have to find my sister. I can’t get kicked out. I have to find my sister!” The doorman was really nice to me.

“Why, what happened?” I asked. He replied, “You don’t know do you.”

Outside, I found the car and crawled underneath. I was scared and thought no one would find me there. When the concert ended, my party including my sister returned to the car. I heard her asking, “Where is Jeff?” I was underneath the car.

I got carsick on the way back to grandma’s house. I stopped listening to Sonic Youth and most Rock-n-Roll in general. That little escapade stopped me from listening to the Downsiders.

Just a little background about when this happened; this took place after my girlfriend cheated because my sister and her boyfriend were living in Santa Cruz. That was the summer of 1989. I began the Xiphoid and painted approximately a year and a half later. For most people though this time coincides with the publishing of Sonic Youth’s album Goo.

Comment: August 30th, 2024: I found my sister sufficiently on August 9th, 2024, I realized Kant’s Categorical Imperative. This is also expected to satisfy the Eye and Mind essay by Maurice Merlot Ponty, 1965.