Well, at 47 years old I’m past my prime. I didn’t get that mammoth check to live my days out in comfort. Doctor Dan said, “money is the way to live.” I presume it’s not the only way. So, I have resolved that the money component isn’t going to come through for me. I lost hope now that it’s after Tim’s death. With that, it’s like I have been catapulted beyond the point of no return.

This is a list of places I would like to visit if I did have comfort:

• Contra Costa County, California
• Covina, California
• Portland, Oregon
• Texas

There has been a dramatic change to my perceptions as a result of the Clozaril (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clozapine). I am a subterranean. The side effect of the medicine is making me drool at night time. This is what I think happened; I drooled on the comforter at CRT. After I left CRT, the staff gave the room to the next client. They got the room and also the comforter. My white blood cells have my genetic matter. I seem to have gotten someone underway. So, I’ve been asked, “How do you know CRT didn’t wash the comforter?” I answered, “because I have a sore Jaw.”

I got to see a red light in the dawn sky the morning of January 2, 2015. It is the first sign that a new story is underway. I’ve been divinely guided up till now. All posts prior to this are my writings without a structure of a discerned white blood cell. The requisite sore jaw was recorded on January 12, 2015 when I went to the dentist.

The painting Red Hill and White Shell was first introduced via an Art Historian from the Guggenheim, Sarah, who died October 31, 2014.

I got to see a red light in the dawn sky the morning of January 2, 2015. It is the first sign that a new story is underway. I’ve been divinely guided up till now. All posts prior to this are my writings without a structure of a discerned white blood cell. The requisite sore jaw was recorded on January 12, 2015 when I went to the dentist.

The painting Red Hill and White Shell was first introduced via an Art Historian from the Guggenheim, Sarah, who died October 31, 2014.

I’m remembering the Coke and Pepsi painting I did in 1990. I guess that I’m upset that Pepsi thinks I’m  hurting their business. When I painted I just did the two competing companies.

Later, after me and my girlfriend broke up, I thought people could vote for the one they liked. Today I know that Coca-Cola got the vote. But Pepsi doesn’t even want votes. My thinking is a little political, but Pepsi wasn’t running. I guess Coke wins the vote-off.

Now I’m faced with a winner and the two companies aren’t “even,” like in the painting. Maybe people could root for the underdog.

How someone with Schizophrenia could get so much cooperation from my people to write a book is beyond me.

I do have something to say about the book; it is pretty simple. I’m not suffering! I’m pretty much a happy person. I’m delighted most every day. I’m also a nice person. Rape is not an idea that intrudes on my conscience. I was just born with no genetic predisposition to think about rape. It’s genetic! This book doesn’t portray the free spirit that I am.

There is nothing to fix because I’m not broken. Distinguishing a person’s conscience has to do with a gene. People are who they are. No fear – There is no changes possible to a person’s governing self.

I believe the author has projected himself onto me. Too many hits on JEFF is a sign of a mental illness. The book is proof that he has obsessed and that he has schizophrenia.

You hunted me down because you saw my painting. I know that I am not easy to find, so I want to thank you for your effort. What exactly did you see in my painting? I want to docent the painting so you will remember it as I do.

You saw the following:

• The numbers 46605. They are the dimensions of the painting in inches.
• Two lines and an oval in black. Most people have in their mind one line and a circle.
• Gentle brushes.
• Colors like what you would see if gas were a rainbow on top of water or:
• Colors like what you would see if you looked into a diamond.
• And with a little study there are all sorts of detail type things to see.

From recollection though this is a pretty good list to go by, nothing compares to seeing it and remembering it this way. I have gotten confident about the painting, and I am comfortable knowing that you liked it. Thank you again for your visit.

Comment: Feb. 25, 2020; this link serves better the kind of abstraction my painting endures. Profound. Differentiation

This is my best work. I have said a lot about it. I’m so proud. This great work came too early though. It blew me away it was so good. I got one. That’s good.

I want to show my painting, “46605.”

The 46605 Picture

The original slide was taken by my Instructor for a lower division Painting Studio Class. Notice in this picture the light source is on the left making the right side look darker. This is in the photograph. In reality the shading is even.

All I can hope is that you see a beautiful picture. There is much to see.

Thank You.