Author: Gevluef

I am blessed with a great deal of Creativity. At the core of my life's purpose and meaning, I want to express, understand, reconcile, and render Mental Illness. Now "culture" (2018), my Mental Illness has been in remission. For that Mental Health Diagnostic Criteria the fifth digit is a Five.

Wish List

Well, at 47 years old I’m past my prime. I didn’t get that mammoth check to live my days out in comfort. Doctor Dan said, “money is the way to live.” I presume it’s not the only way. So, I have resolved that the money component isn’t going to come through for me. I lost hope now that it’s after Tim’s death. With that, it’s like I have been catapulted beyond the point of no return.

This is a list of places I would like to visit if I did have comfort:

  • Contra Costa County, California
  • Covina, California
  • Portland, Oregon
  • Texas

Notes on Gospel of John

Thirty-Five

I’ve had a mindful voice which I discovered was brought to the surface of things in the first chapter of John in the Bible. Tim was the witness, in that Tim witnessed the light. Here, the light he witnessed was within me. The word became God – thus I came into my own and was not received (John 1:10-11). Worst yet, the word became flesh. Love has completely played out. That I share the characteristics of John this past 20 years until Dec 2014, I know the circumstance has completely changed.

Zero-Seven

Now I am a witness of the light within Anthony, It is completely different. There is within Anthony a light which I am a witness. Thankfully the Gospel of John tells me I am preferred now before Anthony. His word is God. It is a new beginning. I am the him that John talked about. There is a brand new story to be told.

 

I am referring to the Xiphoid and the Gene within. Tim would be the witness to my Xiphoid now number 35. Very little of it remains; “It’s me when I be”. And, I am the witness for Anthony’s Xiphoid now number 07. He can stay.

I admire your Sobriety in any case. Alcohol will denature the Xiphoid.

Rods Phenomenon

The rod is a symptom of a Table. I had a Table. It was subtracted and the Rod phenomenon went away. All that’s left of the flying rod is the number 54. I learned about the rods on the History channel. I have written other posts here at Gevluef about a table. It is a reason to feel worried.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rod_(optics)

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Comment: May 14, 2024: It is presumed that the DSM IV is a Rod. The date for that presumption is November 10th, 2023

Last word on Tim

 

Ghosting is the last word. The book and other criteria shows that Tim is stalking. The Public Defender confiscated his insight all about me; his book and other papers which he retained at his Ojai home were a dossier. In the weeks prior to his slaying, he provoked me by cremating and ghosting. I lost the support structure which would have been considered my support structure in death.

 

I complained about the stalking with staff; in that I was extremely uncomfortable. He was killed October 24, 2014. Stalking wasn’t the reason he was killed, even though he didn’t get help from staff for his schizophrenia, it was his ghosting.

So, after that I made a complete change in the camps. My composition has changed dramatically. My gene is now buried inside of a xiphoid; Tim was to me as I am now to Anthony. I have to be careful because Tim violated my privileges and immunities. I do not want bother Anthony. Nevertheless, I am becoming Anthony.

The major change once again is that my genes make up the core of Anthony’s xiphoid. The composition seems like I’ve completely changed camps.

Comment Nov. 20, 2015: This comment is to explain why Leonardo’s painting is shown here. Notice the angel above the figures? When Tim died, and I have already explained that his gene is in my xiphoid, when Tim died, I felt my sternum/ribs in the same formation as the figures; 1-11. What I am telling you is that Leonardo had cosmological ribs above his xiphoid and that his painting is expressing the fact that the linked person, whose gene it is, died. The law exists for the person whose gene it is, and goes out when that person dies.

Basically in the heavens there is a law and above that is the world!

Comment; November 4, 2024: I am struggling to understand this passage. As I read it, I need to tell the reader that Tim was ghosting me.

First Sign of XYPhoid

There has been a dramatic change to my perceptions as a result of the Clozaril (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clozapine). I am a subterranean. The side effect of the medicine is making me drool at night time. This is what I think happened; I drooled on the comforter at CRT. After I left CRT, the staff gave the room to the next client. They got the room and also the comforter. My white blood cells have my genetic matter. I seem to have gotten someone underway. So, I’ve been asked, “How do you know CRT didn’t wash the comforter?” I answered, “because I have a sore Jaw.”

Dawn – Red Star

red-hill-and-white-shellI got to see a red light in the dawn sky the morning of January 2, 2015. It is the first sign that a new story is underway. I’ve been divinely guided up till now. All posts prior to this are my writings without a structure of a discerned white blood cell. The requisite sore jaw was recorded on January 12, 2015 when I went to the dentist.

The painting Red Hill and White Shell was first introduced via an Art Historian from the Guggenheim, Sarah, who died October 31, 2014.

Dawn – Red Star

I got to see a red light in the dawn sky the morning of January 2, 2015. It is the first sign that a new story is underway. I’ve been divinely guided up till now. All posts prior to this are my writings without a structure of a discerned white blood cell. The requisite sore jaw was recorded on January 12, 2015 when I went to the dentist.

The painting Red Hill and White Shell was first introduced via an Art Historian from the Guggenheim, Sarah, who died October 31, 2014.