Stigma

I’m feeling self conscious about the following Blog post. I know that I have readers and they are not always staff. I think that admitting that I have a mental illness is a shock to readers who are not staff. I’m sorry; this might be a disconnect. The truth that I have been talking about mental illness the whole time is apparent to readers that have been with me for a while. There are lots of posts that deal with the “conscience” going back several years in Gevluef. Considering that you are a new reader, I apologize. There is a lot of awareness of mental illnesses in our communities; and that you are here, I am certain I completely understand the schizophrenia and schizo-affective mental illnesses. You are in good hands because in this Blog I explicitly tell the readers what exactly these are.

There is over three hundred fifty posts in Gevluef. I have accomplished much. I don’t want to lose a reader just because I have felt the need to distinguish myself from schizophrenia. It feels as if I am writing without a history. That’s not right; I have said enough for anyone to understand mental illness. If you don’t care about it, then resolve that you have had a chance to learn what exactly mental illness is.

Please have patience. This is a difficult subject. I have had some major changes recently. I am adjusting to a new circumstance. Though I am not feeling the historical perspective of Gevluef, I know that my ideas are good ones. It just takes time for the ideas to sink in.

If you are a family member please visit the Psychology Today article where the “Mental Health Problem” is discussed: mental-health-stigma

On Mood

My mental health is relative. The key word is relative. So, my housing establishes the mental health disposition. Thats because of the kind of mental illness I have; schizo-affective, I affect my community. How I am doing is relative. Doing good presently just means my community is doing good, and I am a function of that. If my housing changes, my mental health disposition would change resultantly. Relative to others. Clinically, the schizo-affective mental illness has a mood component. That is the relative factor I am trying to explain.

A Sign Of The Times

I am experiencing the same sort of reality as everyone else. Graduating from high school in the second half of the eighties, community college, and University of California, I’m used to a much more private reality. The changes I’ve experienced since my younger days makes me think there is something wrong with me. I have no confidence. I’m constantly discerning my constituency as adversaries. And, I just have to realize that everyone is experiencing that. The times have changed.

There are three possible factors that could have influenced society. They are probably obvious. Starting in 1988 new born children are given a vaccine immunizing them against chicken pox ( https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chickenpox#Vaccine). The second possible factor responsible for changing society is the change in our cash currency. The money was changed in 1997. All the bills used to look like the one dollar bills we see today. The new bills are “golden.” My feeling is that society went from Capitalism to Socialism. To give you an idea of how wrong the new money is, let me just say, “you send the bill to congress.” I am referring to the disposition of the society based on the change in the common currency. The last factor to consider why there is a difference in our society from my youth is the internet.

I’m saying that I have a mental illness when in fact there is a major difference in society that has affected everyone. It is a sign of the times.

Notes on Gospel of John

Thirty-Five

I’ve had a mindful voice which I discovered was brought to the surface of things in the first chapter of John in the Bible. Tim was the witness, in that Tim witnessed the light. Here, the light he witnessed was within me. The word became God – thus I came into my own and was not received (John 1:10-11). Worst yet, the word became flesh. Love has completely played out. That I share the characteristics of John this past 20 years until Dec 2014, I know the circumstance has completely changed.

Zero-Seven

Now I am a witness of the light within Anthony, It is completely different. There is within Anthony a light which I am a witness. Thankfully the Gospel of John tells me I am preferred now before Anthony. His word is God. It is a new beginning. I am the him that John talked about. There is a brand new story to be told.

 

I am referring to the Xiphoid and the Gene within. Tim would be the witness to my Xiphoid now number 35. Very little of it remains; “It’s me when I be”. And, I am the witness for Anthony’s Xiphoid now number 07. He can stay.

I admire your Sobriety in any case. Alcohol will denature the Xiphoid.

Rods Phenomenon

The rod is a symptom of a Table. I had a Table. It was subtracted and the Rod phenomenon went away. All that’s left of the flying rod is the number 54. I learned about the rods on the History channel. I have written other posts here at Gevluef about a table. It is a reason to feel worried.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rod_(optics)

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Comment: May 14, 2024: It is presumed that the DSM IV is a Rod. The date for that presumption is November 10th, 2023