I Am Toning

I’m reading The Mozart Effect by Don Campbell and there is a section on Toning. I got interested in toning when I realized there is a lot of Ah’s and Om’s in my speech. I’m not thinking letters. What else could I be doing then?

I realized that I am toning. I have since found some value in elongating those Ah’s and Om’s in the form of a natural sounding tone. I am dealing with my problem in a productive way: Toning!

YouTube Video on Vocal Toning

The Laurel House

Progress Place umbrella of services included a transitional house for clients until they get independent housing: Laurel House at 3133 Laurel Street in Napa California. I stayed there a few months in 1995. What that house has is an old water softener system that isn’t being used. The staff knows about this feature because in the garage there is six fifty pound bags of rock salt from when the system was working. The rock salt is a remnant collecting dust and cobwebs. I think I knew about that when I was there; but, I surely didn’t forget it for six years after. Laurel House made a big impression on me. And, I really appreciate getting to stay. Thank you Laurel House!

The Landfill

I have given this post a Tag: Lithographic, Printmaking. Although there are four other posts on this subject here at Gevluef. Use Search, “Horsechestnut” to get the others. UC Santa Cruz has a lot of limestone for fine art printing. It is a major collection, and a reason to go to UC Santa Cruz – or not. They have a landfill.

I saved quite a lot of horsechestnut seeds from Seattle which I brought with me on my vacation to Taos and Chico California. During my vacation I determined the seeds would most benefit the lithography studio at UC Santa Cruz. At UCSC there is an excellent collection of lithographic limestone for printing Art. The infused fresh water would be good for them since they are fine porous limestone and they absorb water from the printing process. So, I mailed the horsechestnut seeds to the UCSC lithographic studio. That was the beginning of the problem.

It was the summer session at UCSC in 2001 and the Teacher’s Assistant received my collection marked as “ART SUPPLY.” He opened the package and the plastic tub containing the seeds. Then he said quietly, “I’ve been had!” He didn’t even look at the paperwork; he just threw everything away as if he wanted no part of it. There were over fifty seeds in that collection. That’s enough to make sweet water for lots of printmaking sessions. But the highly valued seeds went to the landfill instead. I have to make it clear to the reader that I intended the seed collection to be used at the lithography studio. When I am asked if I put the horsechestnut seeds in the landfill, I tell people, “I can’t do it.” If you are from Santa Cruz and blame me for this problem, I am sorry. I have had horsechestnut seed infused water in my body. I have some concerns about the landfill. I have to deal with the unexpected outcome of the landfill because the TA wasn’t interested in learning what the seeds were.

I imagine that the seeds have made the landfill fresh and sweet, and that the people in Santa Cruz have trouble with it leading to the body. They were thrown away in 2001, so there is an entire section of the landfill affected; but, that they were buried long ago. There are some things to consider about this problem, but you must think that our cash-bills have horsechestnut seed as a fundamental element in the cash design – perhaps it is the ink or the paper.

The TA eventually found out that something went wrong and learned about the seeds after the fact. He has visited Seattle Washington where the seeds grow in the wild. At this late date, I have had the expectation that he introduce horsechestnut seed into the lithography studio like I planned; but, I have not been satisfied as to any progress toward my original intention.

Donating to Jeff

Tim Yates who I’ve written about in previous posts believes my money belongs to him. There is a moratorium on me receiving money because he is blocking it from coming in. To this day, I still have not received any money from donations.

I continue to donate, however, from a cache of funds involving the staff. Mostly these donations are made with the understanding that the staff is operating as a non-profit. I am being left out of the formula. This no longer works for me because I am the only one without money from a vast array of friends and family with millions.

People have tried to donate to me only to have their mail returned. This is consistent with the staff directive established by Tim Yates also known as Hugh Farrell.

Most of the people who know about me donate because I made a big splash in mental health when I got my rhinoplasty in October of 1991. If you don’t know what a rhinoplasty is then you should learn about it. But if you do know about the rhinoplasty, you probably know that I’m supposed to get the old money and that my problem is that new money doesn’t do that. It’s pretty much all staff money.

The rhinoplasty is more than twenty years old though, and I have to start the matter of royalties from my painting. This matter is becoming more important because I am 45 years old. This is the minimum age for an annuity. The money that comes in from the painting in the form of royalties should reach me directly. Because of Tim or Hugh Farrell I’m not getting my royalties. So, I’m asking for my royalties on the painting. At this point just sending a check won’t work. I would like it very much if a private investigator could be hired to try to get money to me directly. I know that I am not asking for too much. But it has to be done. Thank you for your prompt attention in this matter.

Helping

There is something I want to clarify about my mental illness. I don’t help. Leila has the use of her arms and some of her hands. Many people with Phocomelia do not and need help with everyday tasks such as showering, eating, and going to the bathroom. Leila can do everything herself. She does not need assistance; so, I’m not a helper. I just wanted to clarify that.

She is very proud of her functionality. She would benefit, and so would I, if she asked for help once in a while.

Eye And Mind

The essay in which every college student should read is Eye And Mind translation by Carleton Dallery. There is another translation that is more recent; but it is inferior. The best is the one I have provided the link for; however to get this essay in full you might have to buy the book. I can’t seem to find this translation on the Internet. To read about Merleau-Ponty visit his Wikipedia page.