Category: Disparity

Stigma

I’m feeling self conscious about the following Blog post. I know that I have readers and they are not always staff. I think that admitting that I have a mental illness is a shock to readers who are not staff. I’m sorry; this might be a disconnect. The truth that I have been talking about mental illness the whole time is apparent to readers that have been with me for a while. There are lots of posts that deal with the “conscience” going back several years in Gevluef. Considering that you are a new reader, I apologize. There is a lot of awareness of mental illnesses in our communities; and that you are here, I am certain I completely understand the schizophrenia and schizo-affective mental illnesses. You are in good hands because in this Blog I explicitly tell the readers what exactly these are.

There is over three hundred fifty posts in Gevluef. I have accomplished much. I don’t want to lose a reader just because I have felt the need to distinguish myself from schizophrenia. It feels as if I am writing without a history. That’s not right; I have said enough for anyone to understand mental illness. If you don’t care about it, then resolve that you have had a chance to learn what exactly mental illness is.

Please have patience. This is a difficult subject. I have had some major changes recently. I am adjusting to a new circumstance. Though I am not feeling the historical perspective of Gevluef, I know that my ideas are good ones. It just takes time for the ideas to sink in.

If you are a family member please visit the Psychology Today article where the “Mental Health Problem” is discussed: mental-health-stigma

Last word on Tim

 

Ghosting is the last word. The book and other criteria shows that Tim is stalking. The Public Defender confiscated his insight all about me; his book and other papers which he retained at his Ojai home were a dossier. In the weeks prior to his slaying, he provoked me by cremating and ghosting. I lost the support structure which would have been considered my support structure in death.

 

I complained about the stalking with staff; in that I was extremely uncomfortable. He was killed October 24, 2014. Stalking wasn’t the reason he was killed, even though he didn’t get help from staff for his schizophrenia, it was his ghosting.

So, after that I made a complete change in the camps. My composition has changed dramatically. My gene is now buried inside of a xiphoid; Tim was to me as I am now to Anthony. I have to be careful because Tim violated my privileges and immunities. I do not want bother Anthony. Nevertheless, I am becoming Anthony.

The major change once again is that my genes make up the core of Anthony’s xiphoid. The composition seems like I’ve completely changed camps.

Comment Nov. 20, 2015: This comment is to explain why Leonardo’s painting is shown here. Notice the angel above the figures? When Tim died, and I have already explained that his gene is in my xiphoid, when Tim died, I felt my sternum/ribs in the same formation as the figures; 1-11. What I am telling you is that Leonardo had cosmological ribs above his xiphoid and that his painting is expressing the fact that the linked person, whose gene it is, died. The law exists for the person whose gene it is, and goes out when that person dies.

Basically in the heavens there is a law and above that is the world!

Comment; November 4, 2024: I am struggling to understand this passage. As I read it, I need to tell the reader that Tim was ghosting me.

JBL

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Today I subtracted my JBL Speakers. October 2, 2014

Today I bought a PEPSI. I found out that doing so was a Staff Directive. I want to tell you that I had mixed emotions, but that my rational thinking told me PEPSI is more appropriate for me. I made such a huge mess with my bizarre thoughts all I can do is concede that I didn’t like PEPSI.

The truth is that days before this experience PEPSI arranged a donation and that PEPSI helped me in a big way. I found my owner; the owner of the JBL Speakers. Given many options as to what to do with them, the owner finely incinerated them in the yard. I’m a free person no more bound to Acoustic reflexes! The PEPSI money helped me to accomplish that. I’m so grateful to PEPSI for making that possible. Recall that acoustic enclosures are a probable place for an expected mother to put her baby. Those JBL’s were present when my mom was pregnant.

So if you like PEPSI and want to promote the brand of cola, pick up some used speakers and give a person their freedom. The staff told me finely, “you only shave once.” I knew what that meant because I remember how it felt when my JBL’s were incinerated.

If I hadn’t blown it with PEPSI, I might have gotten some sponsorship money; but they pulled out at the last minute. Keep in mind that bizarre thoughts, which I had with a PEPSI, are caused by a girl.

Choosing

I know my painting is a very beautiful work of Art; however, it is time for me to bring up an issue that is not that good. What happens is the extremely beautiful girls visit me. I am a guy; and, I appreciate that very much, but I want to discourage the visits. The girls that visit choose. It is stressful for me because I want them to choose RIGHT. That doesn’t always happen. I have written a worksheet about the Advance Directive in an effort to teach people that it helps girls who are crying. Search the site for “Advance Directive,” to see what I’ve written. I really like getting visits and perhaps it would be better if you want to visit that you’ve already chosen. There is no danger to the viewer of the painting and no danger to people visiting and reading this Blog. It just has to do with me personally. I’m a chooser. That is my issue. I’m glad you are interested in my work, but maybe it would be better to celebrate the painting’s beauty at a distance. I’m really sorry because a beautiful girl has a way of making me happy.

Helping

There is something I want to clarify about my mental illness. I don’t help. Leila has the use of her arms and some of her hands. Many people with Phocomelia do not and need help with everyday tasks such as showering, eating, and going to the bathroom. Leila can do everything herself. She does not need assistance; so, I’m not a helper. I just wanted to clarify that.

She is very proud of her functionality. She would benefit, and so would I, if she asked for help once in a while.

Victim of Stalking

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What it looks like to staff that sees me is “A Beautiful Mind;” but, I now know that I have the symptoms of a victim of stalking. There is another movie that tells me more clearly that I’m being stalked: “There’s Something About Mary.”

It just hit me over the head the other movie was so obvious. At the end of the movie, there is a song that says my friends tell me to quit my complaining. I would like help. By the time “A Beautiful Mind” has a turn, it’s too late. Yet, I would like to ask Staff to get some training to deal with me as a victim of stalking. Right now, they are treating for a mental illness, and I am saying I need a little more support around my symptoms because I’m being stalked. A little training on the subject will confirm that I am having symptoms of being stalked. So please, help me by understanding the pathology of the crime. At the very least, if you are working with me, could you please see the movie: “There’s Something About Mary.”

If I’m supposed to be a victim of Stalking, what are my symptoms?

Beauty is an addiction

  • I’m complaining about someone that hasn’t been a part of my life in twenty years.
  • In my social contacts, the other person implicitly dictates to me the subjects to be talked about.
  • People involved with me are choosing left.
  • Many facts and issues I address are denied as not being true or not based in reality.
  • I can’t engage in small talk.
  • Bodies having names correlating to me are being cremated.