The Table Will Fall

“Has no meaning” I blew the speech in front of the whole sophomore class. I only got One Vote.
“Don Markey” one of two antagonists who carried the table over board.
“Mirrors”

Getting Over Tim Yates

I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.

One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.

Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.

I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.

Angie

I painted this picture after 46605. It has been called an, “independent.” I’m guessing that it is because the painting doesn’t have any remnants of previous paintings. It was painted pretty much at the time 46605 at UC Santa Cruz. It is not signed, so we will have to rely on this blog for its authenticity. Please keep in mind that I will not get any money directly for this art. We’re a poor shower. Though I may be entitled to some money, My sister might pay me a couple of thousand dollars for this work. Instead of getting frustrated over my lack of money, I want to let go and allow the viewer to develop this picture in a pleasing manner

Pynchon In Public

I have to do some writing about Thomas Pynchon. I’m going to explore this website: Thomas Pynchon. Interestingly, I mused about this author years ago in a post called: Thomas Pynchon on my Gevluef blog where I establish that he is doing good relative to his family and Democracy.

I have much more to say about him. There may be a newer post around July 2024, where I make some notes to myself about the things he is dealing with.

Concerning Month in 1991

This post is proof that I have had the wrong date for my one night stand with Joyce. I need to show this because I have to rewrite my history. Back in the day the only reference was a home made calendar for the month that everything happened. I did not label that particular month, so I didn’t know what month it was. I located the critical days Friday and Saturday the 18th and 19th, so these days I am sure of. Because of the below helpful calendar from 1991, I can see that those dates couldn’t possibly be in November and are in fact days in October.

This past twenty-four years I have collected many substance type materials that I have to now change. And, probably because of the fact that the Oakland Firestorm occurred on the 19th of the same month and year, I can presumably say the error was in my best interests; not to acknowledge the truth because it is so terrible. In the course of rewriting my history to reflect the corrected information, I have the BLUE painting. So the blue painting will establish more than what happened, it will close the matter in total. It will be that absolute point of getting the one night stand correctly. I know that when this project is finished, a viewer of the blue painting who knows just a little bit about me will get it solid.

Locating Blog Content – Goo

There has been recent interest for my accounting of the event at the Sonic Youth concert from the Summer of 1990. I have written about it, although it is hard to find: 2013/03/18/9192. This event has had a major effect on my life after which I went to UC Santa Cruz. The post gives the badly needed account of what exactly happened, and what was going through my mind. This event was one of the circumstances I was dealing with during my studies at college. Since I got kicked out of the concert, it is perhaps the “out” perspective that lead to the masterpiece painting I have mentioned in many of my posts at Gevluef.

I am very lucky that I aquired a XYphoid, a somewhere the female in the story has had for the management of her concerns.

I have considered contributing to the Wikipedia page for Goo. The link is: Goo (album). And there was a second tour in Europe in which a documentary was made: 1991: The Year Punk Broke . It is David Markey’s documentary of life on the road with Sonic Youth and Nirvana during their tour of Europe in late 1991.

Wright Institute

Kresge College

Francis Beeks probably has his difficulties with God. I have said in a previous post that he killed my grandfather because J. Paul Getty Jr. wanted it. I am sure there is money involved but I need to say that Francis Beeks was plagued with the Kresge building at UC Santa Cruz. The strange people he experienced were a manifestation of Kresge College. I might be willing to say that the Kresge Architectural intent was to show the Getty hit money. So if you need to get the checking done on Francis, Kresge is the most obvious place to begin. Does Kresge know about Francis Beeks?

Please see recent posts about Texas for the full story. There are some people who are struggling to understand what I’ve been writing about recently; some of them staff. My experience at Kresge was negative just because I’m the grandson of the murder victim, Elwood Polsen. If I try to do it, and it has to do with Kresge, I will probably get shot down. Kresge has that strong of an effect. My circumstances are just too close to truth for comfort. I’m sorry if I’ve given out the Kresge secret; I’m just disclosing the disparity I feel. I think being a student there and asking for a degree after a time just makes no sense. Maybe things have changed since Francis has passed away, but I doubt that I can make it through. I just can’t have a degree from Kresge. That’s the bottom line.

Fact Checker

In case you want to do some checking, the college issue is one fact you will want to check. I want to check it myself because it is one of complexity. Let me explain. 46605 says “UCSC,” on the back. That is University of California Santa Cruz. Did I graduate? No and Yes.

I went to UCSC the 1990-1991 school year and did all my work in that year, mostly Philosophy and Art. My mental illness didn’t kick in until 1992 when everything fell apart. In 1992 I was given a medical leave of absence.

Fast forward to the years since the millennium, the mental health agency in Santa Cruz embezzled money from me. The money was being transferred to the UC and I was accumulating credits. Then in 2011, I made a small technicality-correction with the mental health agency in Santa Cruz, and I think what happened as a result was that the University graduated me under my current legal name William Lewis in Philosophy, 2011.

That will have to do for now. I should write more about what it was I needed to do for the mental health agency that fixed things well enough to get the degree because it is pertinent to my experience from when I attended. In general though, I was one of the lucky ones because after studying that year and I had the medical leave I really understood the material. I like my college, and I like my knowledge I acquired there. I really learned my subject. Not everyone can say that about their college or their major.

So, please check this fact even though it is not good enough to stand the test of time. William Lewis isn’t involved in the painting. I am working on a better more substantial association to UC Santa Cruz for the painting. It just needs to be about Jeff Devitt. Please be patient.

Comment: August 31, 2022: There was an attempt to re-enter the University in 2002. I got a room in Capitola and enrolled. It wasn’t meant to be because the house got termites and I had to leave. I left my stuff behind. The land lady waited till now to throw away my stuff; twenty years. I imagine that she knows me pretty well.

Comment: May 14, 2024: It is at this point that the person curating my painting should make access at Kresge.