Cognitive Deficits

I started out with a list of the dimensions of unequal distributions of cognitive abilities. I am encountering situations where I’m unable to communicate with another person effectively. I expect another person to develop an idea from a possibility; cognitive thinking. If the other person is working correctly they should have a capacity to reason in which they recognize facts or identify a subject. I have resorted to SORRY as a means to level the ground with the hope that the person could get the idea.

One possible tool to fixing the unequal cognitive distribution is the Federalist Paper’s #10, referred to in an earlier post; liberty, protection of property and balancing are taken up as goals for reconciling faction. Recently, I have been learning on YouTube about Fascism. Fascism is exactly why I am having the problem outline above. I can’t get satisfaction socially, one on one, because Fascism doesn’t support that. Fascism is the current political climate.

Comment: January 7, 2017; My very first writing about Spinoza is at the Gevluef post called Cognitive Thinking. I promise to call on Spinoza when there are cognitive deficits.

Getting Over Tim Yates

I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.

One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.

Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.

I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.

Long Gone Johns

Looking at a specific event from when I lived at the Sumner House in Santa Cruz, I feel the need to share. I stole some blue long johns from a visitor who wanted to meet me.

My infamy, and Joyce Kim wouldn’t have been part of it until a year later, was developing. I was meeting Leila and during my stay at the Sumner House I was also to paint. The earliest sign that I was coming into people’s awareness was a visit by a guy who asked to use our laundry machines. When I came home all that remained from his task were his long johns. My housemates told me about the visit. I took the long johns to my room. When he returned for them, he asked if I took them and I told him no. He must have left me with a problem; I would eventually have to deal with him because I disrespected him and stole his long johns when really all he wanted was to meet me.

After many years and I had gotten used to the public knowledge and visits and such, he managed to embezzle money from me. Needless to say I learned what he really wanted was for me to pay him fifty dollars out of my pocket as reimbursement for his long gone johns.

Years again, I know that he hasn’t forgotten about me. I believe he settled in Covina where their water is blue.

Bottle of Sand

Drawing 1989

This and the next few posts are pictures of Art I did in 1989. I was taking lower division Art classes at Santa Barbara City College. There were a great many drawings and gauche paintings from that time. I am showing the few I was able to retain.

Robert Van’t Hoff painting – 1989

This painting, which I have also shown the picture was in my Art History Book. I am not sure how I was able to render it with so much detail. The medium is water based gauche in a monochromatic color scheme. This is one of the paintings which I did in 1989 for a SBCC Art class. I am so proud of my work, and it is a pleasure to share. I am also thinking that if the painting still exists, this would be a record establishing me as the artist.

Robert Van’t Hoff: Ituis Ter Heide Utrech, The Netherlands; 1916. The rendering was by Jeffrey Devitt; 1989

Duck and Dragon

I have very few records of Art work from 1989. I was prolific mostly in Gauche on illustration board as there were many assignments for design composition and color. This picture is of the duck and the dragon. Interestingly, this picture viewed upside down looks like the name JEFF. The pattern is two ducks for every dragon.

This picture is titled, “The Duck And The Dragon;” by Jeffrey Devitt, 1989

Coke and Pepsi Painting

This is the last of my old photographs of Artwork I did in 1989. I was taking lower division Art courses at Santa Barbara City College. There were a great many Art works from this time. Much of my work has been lost. Particularly, this painting was not a school assignment. I later mused that Coke and Pepsi could be in competition by a vote of preference. Today, these are not the only companies competing for your business; however, Pepsi is the underdog. I wish that I had a better picture of it, but I am certain about the real thing, the owners of the painting are happy with it. That is all I could ask for.

This painting is called “Coke and Pepsi.” It is by Jeffrey Devitt; 1989.

Bicycle

My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.