Summer 2001

In May 2001 I left Seattle in pursuit of Leila to New Mexico. She had divorced her husband Steve in San Francisco for me. She came to Seattle and couldn’t confront me on the basis that it was too well. She asked the staff at Community House where I most wanted to go and went there instead; that was Taos New Mexico. When I heard she had left, I went too. We had parallel experiences. Among the many strange events in Taos, we both spent a night in jail. After Taos, we went to Chico California.

I lost my legs during the vacation in Taos and Chico. In July I decided that Leila was a dead end, I would return to Seattle and rejoin the Community House Mental Health place. I rode Greyhound. I stayed from the early hours till day time at the Greyhound station in Seattle. By the time I left the station my legs were swelled up like balloons. I walked on them. Everyone was rushing around talking fast and worried. When I noticed my legs, I wanted to hide. That day I fell asleep in a ditch and was found by Police, Fire, and Ambulance. I was taken to the hospital emergency room. I was told I would need an IV to remedy the swelling. Still groggy, I asked for a girl to administer it. The next day I woke up in the hospital’s safe Unit. I looked over myself down toward my legs. They were normal. That day I was transferred to a facility where I would stay until November – through the September 11th disaster. My legs have never swelled again since. Well that might not be entirely true, I might have a little swollen mound on my right leg. It is normal for me now, but I think it developed as a remnant from my experience returning to Seattle. Now, I think of it as an organ.

Leila has always been close to me in heart and mind. That vacation was the beginning of a new face of cooperation between us. She now lives in Beverly Hills California and probably recalls our vacation as vividly as I do.

IF Comment

This Painting is painted from skills acquired while a student at the University of California at Santa Cruz under the instructor Kacy Kladget. It should be considered a supplement to the work 46605 at the Los Angeles County Museum of Art by Jeffrey Devitt. In 46605 there is a set of axis in three dimensions. The reason I painted this painting is that the axis needs to be ordered. Thus I have painted a 5 to illustrate the way in which the axis is to be ordered; the right hand rule.

It is an original Jeffrey Devitt although it is not signed, and not framed. I am giving the work to my Aunt. The expectation is that the museum will want to see it, however I am so limited that it would be impossible unless she makes an arrangement.

Vote

The most interesting properties within a VOTE brings a nominee to the presidency. Votes are free and everything, but it is very interesting that the nominee WANTS your vote. They want to get votes. They like votes. They try to attract the voter to vote in their favor. Please vote this year. Your vote should be freely given and it is precious. Please, please vote.

Revisiting Zola

F2 & F3

Tim Yates is a person from my past. His purpose is destructive because he has schizophrenia. The person with phocomelia that he is particular to is Chrissy from Downey California. She is very disillusioned that Tim is obsessed about me. It is important to keep in mind that he has a mental disorder and that he is managing because knowing about me has a therapeutic outcome.

I would expect his writing to be lucidly written. He is my enemy. I hope that my people do not deal with Tim Yates; I have enough problems without him.

Did you want to get another more reliable source in getting to know Tim? Why not try watching the TV show M*A*S*H* for more.

Comment November 3, 2024; I just want to repeat myself about Tim. See the Pompejanischer Picture to see the two different Mental Illnesses.

He died on October 24, 2014. He needed medicine. He had Schizophrenia. He was the associated person for Chrissy Shultz who has Phocomelia. I believe I had a reflex to his access. He was ghosting me. I was provoked and I was justified.

Thomas Pynchon

I am new to Beauty. My reader is already savvy to the Philosophy of Beauty. I want to say that the international policies of major world governments has significantly weakened democracy in the United States. The most important piece to my great puzzle since I started writing about phocomelia is Thomas Pynchon. This is a father for a child that has phocomelia. This father is stronger than his wife because he is a prolific author. This becomes important in the case of distinguishing Beauty for his family when I emphasize that the child with phocomelia is a female.

Were you more interested in the Philosophy of Beauty? Or perhaps you want to read more about my views of the weakening of democracy. Why are people weakening democracy is a question I would like to ask? Really, all I want to offer in this writing is that Thomas Pynchon is someone. He could answer these questions. The mother should not be a source of power in Thomas’ family. International policies are geared to emphasize females with a stronger mother family circumstance knowing that she damages her boyfriend’s ontological structure of self. Since a person with phocomelia has dominant genes from both parents, it appears that it is possible to literally break democracy towards the female side. If it were up to the female, she could have a dominant gene making the circumstance of weakness. We want democracy to work and so we need the males to be strong. Since Thomas Pynchon has written a lot of books, I can safely say that democracy is surviving in my world.

Kimberly’s Computer

I was born again at Harbor Hills community church in 1994. I’m from Santa Cruz; and well, I did my thinking during an earthquake there. Everything mental is neatly tied into a setting of locality and community. Lately there is a trend where the psychiatrists are prescribing Latuda and if I were on it all that would change. I’m a little scared of it, but I want to decide not to take it for real reasons.

Kimberly, my girlfriend in 1994, recently got a computer with internet. It’s very therapeutic for her because she is disclosing and self-advocating. The computer is a perfect environment to learn and grow as a person; but from my perspective, I am always in trouble with staff. Staff hasn’t done anything to me, but I feel as if they want to hurt me as punishment. They are hypercritical of me and want to punish me quite generally. I would be thinking of taking the Latuda, but now that I know Kimberly is happy and working, I will endure the discomfort. I have always thought that being from Santa Cruz is fitting with my mental composition and that changing would make things much less than perfect. Kimberly is a major person and I would change honorably, there is just no need on her part for any of that.

I’m going to discuss other medication options with my psychiatrist. The adjustment I need to make is that Kimberly has a computer!

Chicken Pox

When I was a baby the doctor told my father he wanted money. My dad asked him what he wanted the money for. The doctor said, “I’m thinking about doing something.” My dad replied, “Send me a Bill.”

Starting in 1988 the United States began immunizing babies against chicken Pox. The clear and appropriate serum came from China. It’s not my fault the economy isn’t doing very well. I didn’t get the chicken pox anti-bodies. I’m willing to bet that we are paying for that serum. Now days there is probably even a Bill for it!

Psychiatric

The psychiatric way of people is based on one or a combination of three elements: danger to self, danger to others, gravely disabled. Gravely disabled is when a person cannot provide for their personal needs. These three elements are the criteria for hospitalization.

In the hospital a person is observed and studied. They speak to a psychiatrist every day and information is collected. It is a time for disclosure and trust. Most people are released after three days with follow up and outpatient services required.