Category: Associations

Healing from J Paul Getty Jr.

This family is so sickening that all I see is a mess. I got a mother who as a teenager had some money coming to her. Restitution from the Getty. J Paul Getty Jr. paid Francis Beeks to kill her dad Elwood who was building a wing at one of the Southern California airplane factories.

My Father blew-it though. He offended gas before I was born (Edit note: It is believed his 1961 VW Bug was melted down on March 18, 2018). J Paul Getty was off. My father blew-it. This was so terrible my father’s mom fabricated a story about Arlene’s father being murdered to prevent herself from learning about her son ruining a car. When she got close to the truth she would say, “I don’t know anything about that;” thinking the problem is on my mother’s side. She wanted to get out of the way. This was particularly dramatic for my dad’s mom because she was born in Pittsburgh Texas; all Getty oil. She never exactly found out about dad. She didn’t like me, and father didn’t like me either.

If you can understand this scenario you could maybe help me. All these people are gone. I paid J Paul Getty’s bill in the form of philanthropy to all my family members; 2B.

I’m so disillusioned with this family. I give, and I give my money on behalf of the Getty to my family. I had the nerve to be formally trained in fine Art. I painted a great painting. I’m satisfied with it.

History With Russians

Knowing discernment about the conscience is knowing no fear. Tim had a dominant gene for conscience and an AB type person with phocomelia. Going back to when Tim was friends with me he fulfilled the Russian role in socialization.

I have recessive genes for the conscience, and an AB type person with phocomelia. Going back to my friendship, I fulfilled the presidential role in socialization.

Ronald Reagan was the exact perfection as president and I think Ronald Reagan brought me over to the Russian side. For the last 29 years Russia has had me in mind; since Ronald Reagan. I believe the Russians are trying to give back in the form of Jeff. I know what it’s like to be presidential because of Ronald Reagan even though he gave me over to the Russians. As they are trying to do, the enigma is Jeff.

Comment; May 22, 2022: I need to say that the Russians were able to provide India with Chicken Pox Vaccines. This is more of a history for India than Russia. Read it in another post: https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2009/07/01/official-slumdog-payment/

 

JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena | eBay

JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena

Another task for the Lancer 99 speakers is to recone the speakers. JBL has a kit. A professional will have to install it though.

It was suggested, for buying vintage equipment to photograph the serial number, check to see if it was stolen. The discussion is here: http://forums.officer.com/t138114/

Buy a sound card. Sound cards like the ASUS Xonar DS PCI Sound Card – 7.1 Channel, are aimed mainly at music enthusiasts rather than gamers.

This card has a lot of pins for the computer’s socket. I think this card may be more versatile then a card with fewer pins. I am not a professional, that is just my gut feeling.

This is the exact speakers I grew up listening to. If the plan is for me to get my original speakers, I will have to settle for the same kind.

 

Two way crossover for JBL Speakers

 

JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena. These speakers need a two way crossover. This item on ebay: https://www.ebay.com/itm/236247349294

Bicycle

My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.

Pynchon In Public

I have to do some writing about Thomas Pynchon. I’m going to explore this website: Thomas Pynchon. Interestingly, I mused about this author years ago in a post called: Thomas Pynchon on my Gevluef blog where I establish that he is doing good relative to his family and Democracy.

I have much more to say about him. There may be a newer post around July 2024, where I make some notes to myself about the things he is dealing with.

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Concerning Month in 1991

This post is proof that I have had the wrong date for my one night stand with Joyce. I need to show this because I have to rewrite my history. Back in the day the only reference was a home made calendar for the month that everything happened. I did not label that particular month, so I didn’t know what month it was. I located the critical days Friday and Saturday the 18th and 19th, so these days I am sure of. Because of the below helpful calendar from 1991, I can see that those dates couldn’t possibly be in November and are in fact days in October.

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This past twenty-four years I have collected many substance type materials that I have to now change. And, probably because of the fact that the Oakland Firestorm occurred on the 19th of the same month and year, I can presumably say the error was in my best interests; not to acknowledge the truth because it is so terrible. In the course of rewriting my history to reflect the corrected information, I have the BLUE painting. So the blue painting will establish more than what happened, it will close the matter in total. It will be that absolute point of getting the one night stand correctly. I know that when this project is finished, a viewer of the blue painting who knows just a little bit about me will get it solid.

 

You Are A Man

These pictures were made in rooms where every client was confronted, in the photographer, with a technician of the latest school; whereas the photographer was confronted, in every client, with a member of a rising class equipped with an aura that had seeped into the very folds of the man’s frock coat or floppy cravat.

Walter Benjamin; One-way Street, A Small History of Photography; p.248

Hegel

Phenomenology of Spirit

This is supposed to be read as an experience. The philosophy manifests from his rhetoric. Below is a sample of his original writting. Try to get Hegel’s primary source if you want to read him:

313. Now however much the external shape could express the inner individuality only insofar as the external shape is neither an organ nor an activity, and thereby only insofar as it is a whole at rest, still it would then conduct itself as a durably existing thing which should have motionlessly received into its own passive existence the inner as something alien. It thereby would have become the sign of the inner – an external contingent expression, whose actual aspect is on its own meaningless, a language whose sounds and sound- combinations are not the real thing itself but are intertwined with it through free arbitrary choice and are contingent for that language.

Comment: Gevluef, March 25, 2016; please visit the Phocomelia picture: https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2012/05/30/phocomelia/

Stigma

I’m feeling self conscious about the following Blog post. I know that I have readers and they are not always staff. I think that admitting that I have a mental illness is a shock to readers who are not staff. I’m sorry; this might be a disconnect. The truth that I have been talking about mental illness the whole time is apparent to readers that have been with me for a while. There are lots of posts that deal with the “conscience” going back several years in Gevluef. Considering that you are a new reader, I apologize. There is a lot of awareness of mental illnesses in our communities; and that you are here, I am certain I completely understand the schizophrenia and schizo-affective mental illnesses. You are in good hands because in this Blog I explicitly tell the readers what exactly these are.

There is over three hundred fifty posts in Gevluef. I have accomplished much. I don’t want to lose a reader just because I have felt the need to distinguish myself from schizophrenia. It feels as if I am writing without a history. That’s not right; I have said enough for anyone to understand mental illness. If you don’t care about it, then resolve that you have had a chance to learn what exactly mental illness is.

Please have patience. This is a difficult subject. I have had some major changes recently. I am adjusting to a new circumstance. Though I am not feeling the historical perspective of Gevluef, I know that my ideas are good ones. It just takes time for the ideas to sink in.

If you are a family member please visit the Psychology Today article where the “Mental Health Problem” is discussed: mental-health-stigma