History With Russians

Knowing discernment about the conscience is knowing no fear. Tim had a dominant gene for conscience and an AB type person with phocomelia. Going back to when Tim was friends with me he fulfilled the Russian role in socialization.

I have recessive genes for the conscience, and an AB type person with phocomelia. Going back to my friendship, I fulfilled the presidential role in socialization.

Ronald Reagan was the exact perfection as president and I think Ronald Reagan brought me over to the Russian side. For the last 29 years Russia has had me in mind; since Ronald Reagan. I believe the Russians are trying to give back in the form of Jeff. I know what it’s like to be presidential because of Ronald Reagan even though he gave me over to the Russians. As they are trying to do, the enigma is Jeff.

Comment; May 22, 2022: I need to say that the Russians were able to provide India with Chicken Pox Vaccines. This is more of a history for India than Russia. Read it in another post: https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2009/07/01/official-slumdog-payment/

Early Posts on the Advance Directive

After the Advance Directive
International Advance Directive
Husker Du Zen Arcade

By far the most important post in the above list of links is the New Revised Advance Directive Worksheet 2026. I am proud of it. I wrote it myself. It is the thinking that a girl needs to do for when she is crying and needs a remedy.

Crowns Classic Shadow

This Crowns Classic Shadow longhorn bull picture is here to show that I’m something more than NO. I wrote about the Texas Secret. The Texans coined me a secret because of my painting. I have apparently expressed my father’s bad appropriately. I didn’t really explain why it is called a secret; it is just what I heard from the Texans when concerning JEFF.

Image from NBC News March 25, 2013

The Table Will Fall

“Has no meaning” I blew the speech in front of the whole sophomore class. I only got One Vote.
“Don Markey” one of two antagonists who carried the table over board.
“Mirrors”

Getting Over Tim Yates

I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.

One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.

Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.

I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.

Bicycle

My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.

Blue Painting Completed

I am submitting my final result to Gevluef. There was a plan for additional layers of paint, for example a layer of wax medium, but due to the fact that the figure is a female and not me, I decided against it. This painting has a strong NARRATIVE. That I’m most proud of. It is also a good example of a picture in which a girl would use as a fire-wall; see Make Me A Picture.

Comment: This painting iterated when Joyce saw it on March 8, 2023

Broomcorn Brooms

It is a family directive for me to learn about brooms for sweeping, broom making and broom history. My local news paper VCStar has an article, Yardsmart: How early brooms developed from sorghum. And below is a picture from a blog where broom making is a family business.