Category: Disparity

Helping

There is something I want to clarify about my mental illness. I don’t help. Leila has the use of her arms and some of her hands. Many people with Phocomelia do not and need help with everyday tasks such as showering, eating, and going to the bathroom. Leila can do everything herself. She does not need assistance; so, I’m not a helper. I just wanted to clarify that.

She is very proud of her functionality. She would benefit, and so would I, if she asked for help once in a while.

Victim of Stalking

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What it looks like to staff that sees me is “A Beautiful Mind;” but, I now know that I have the symptoms of a victim of stalking. There is another movie that tells me more clearly that I’m being stalked: “There’s Something About Mary.”

It just hit me over the head the other movie was so obvious. At the end of the movie, there is a song that says my friends tell me to quit my complaining. I would like help. By the time “A Beautiful Mind” has a turn, it’s too late. Yet, I would like to ask Staff to get some training to deal with me as a victim of stalking. Right now, they are treating for a mental illness, and I am saying I need a little more support around my symptoms because I’m being stalked. A little training on the subject will confirm that I am having symptoms of being stalked. So please, help me by understanding the pathology of the crime. At the very least, if you are working with me, could you please see the movie: “There’s Something About Mary.”

If I’m supposed to be a victim of Stalking, what are my symptoms?

Beauty is an addiction

  • I’m complaining about someone that hasn’t been a part of my life in twenty years.
  • In my social contacts, the other person implicitly dictates to me the subjects to be talked about.
  • People involved with me are choosing left.
  • Many facts and issues I address are denied as not being true or not based in reality.
  • I can’t engage in small talk.
  • Bodies having names correlating to me are being cremated.

This Blog Has

This blog has a lot of information about Mental Illness. The main ideas, which are my theories, and that explain the two major Mental Disorders of Schizophrenia and Schizo-affective are mentioned in here from the keyword “conscience.” If you are only interested in learning about these two disorders try searching with that key word. From the list of posts that result, use Ctrl-Click to open the post in a new tab.

My People Are Choosing Left

Comment: Dec. 9, 2022:

If you feel worried, please be as quiet as possible. Please be quiet. Ask for silence.

Thank you.

The people associated with me are choosing left. I have written about the Advance Directive in an effort to manage the phenomenon. If you have chosen left, search my blog for information on the Advance Directive.

People are choosing left and I have to explain why this is happening. It is complicated so please have patience with me. The person who is stalking me and is my arch enemy is Tim Yates. Now everything seems to lead back to me because he has a great deal of insight about me. The reason my people are choosing left is because Tim rolls his stomach. The energy that is ejected from his doing this has an effect on my mind. I would like to believe that he would be found after a time, but that rarely happens. There are many iterations of this energy that are never found. Why it is affecting my left brain, I do not know. His energy may be going to the left brain because he has used my information implicitly to write a book. And, due to the verbal modality, the nature of his energy stays on that part of the brain that processes language.

Tim’s mental disorder is hurting his spirit. There are difficulties of his thinking. They are negative thoughts. Self-pity and ineptitude are chronic problems. Now relative to the energy he is putting out there, a very sad manifestation is in the works.  He has created a very sad and dark hole. Using the word “because” in these conditions broadens the perspective.

There are two ways in which I will deal with my problem of this left phenomenon. I will continue to support a special worker with making access to mental health about Tim’s Schizophrenia. With a staff support structure, Tim’s babies should obey the conventional right. I am also concerned about Tim’s mother who died years ago from heart related complications – she has an Ape heart. I do not know who she is or where she is, but her service may have an integral part of the left phenomenon.

This energy problem is very dangerous because people are choosing left. Tim Yates has schizophrenia and I have sustained a great deal of damage because he thinks about me. If you can think of anything that will help with this problem, I wish that you would apply it as a remedy.

Thank you for your patience as I am devastated in the wake of Tim’s mental disorder.

Comment: March 9, 2016: In this discussion I am blaming Tim for my people choosing, something he was doing with his body. I have written recent posts about Tim Yates, but it is critical for me to comment here not because there are updates about Tim, but there are updates about choosing left. The precise cause of choosing was a Trig Table. When I got rid of my Trig Table everything stopped happening to my people. I am so relieved and thankful that staff allowed me to work the problem out.

Comment: June 5, 2022: Note that there are probably people from whatever circumstances who are choosing left. Please, read all you can here and elsewhere about the Advance Directive. It’s the game changer for someone who is crying.

This is the list of my writings here at Gevluef about the Advance Directive. The New Revised Advance Directive Worksheet 2026 is essential.

Gevluef search link for Gevluef on wordpress.com search “Advance Directive”
https://gevluef.wordpress.com/?s=advance+directive

Comment: May 22, 2024: There is a remedy for this. Set a Countdown trimmer for 5 -10 minutes with a repeat function. You will be able to identify the Inertia. How long does that take? Until you are found.

Inertia defined: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inertia

For a list of watches that have the CDT with repeat function: https://www.watchuseek.com/posts/53021552/
My personal favorite: https://amzn.to/4dOxqvu

YouTube Count down timer with repeat every 5 minutes: https://youtu.be/GADW8Nlnc1s
5 Min repeat: 2Hours

Worried – ask for silence; be quiet

The Case Manager

I gave my consent for something while meeting with my case manager and I won’t ever again: to whom and for what I’ll never know. But if you are an office person you will want to know what happened; or more importantly, how to get someone’s consent similarly.

I was in a one-on-one with my case manager. It was my time to talk with him. We were talking. The desk phone rang and I said, “You can get that.” He answered the phone and spoke briefly about a form being filed after which we resumed our conversation.

I was uncomfortable with the interruption. Later, I realized that I had given my consent for something. If nothing else, I felt cheated out of my one-on-one time. I won’t ever give my consent to that kind of interruption again. I remembered that as one stunt a person could pull off if they wanted permission of some kind from someone they meet in the office. But my advice is to foster an open and honest relationship with your constituency.

Comments on Research

If I have the 22q11.2 deletion syndrome, it would have contributed to the ease in which Leila found me. She is my AB associated person from as early as when she was conceived. At that time, I was two years old. That she has phocomelia cannot be measured in me. She and I are associated. I just think that this genetic deletion makes a person who could be one, two or three years old more susceptible to getting involved with the AB type. It could not be possible that the deletion was a result of the association to the AB. I was already made. I was two years old. There are no changes possible to a person’s genes.

There should be no fear. A person’s genes are who they are. Try to feel safe knowing that there is nothing to break. The people who are differentiating the conscience and think those that don’t get it are broken have a thought disorder. The distinguishing of the conscience has to do with the size of the twenty-second chromosome. Some people have recessive genes. If a person is to learn their way out of a thought disorder; they should know that distinguishing the conscience is a genetic issue. There are no changes possible to a person’s genes.

You like who you are and you will always be that way.

Retrospective Conscience

I’ve been thinking about the therapeutic process. Most of the stuff out there is psychoanalysis. Freud must have been concerned with the twenty-second chromosome. Mostly in the case for the dominant trait for conscience as it is passed on from the mother. What I think might not agree with what I’ve said about Freud in the past, but my mom didn’t have a dominant gene. She was recessive in chromosome number 22. That means I might not be the most ideal patient for psychoanalysis.

Now there is a female with phocomelia where I am particularly interesting. The cause of phocomelia is when a child inherits two dominant genes for conscience; one from each parent. This genetic disposition is so assertive that it mars the body, and thus the deformity of the hands and arms. Because this dominant-dominant trait of the twenty-second chromosome is so assertive those babies that do survive are most often of the blood-type AB. There is a Schizophrenia or Schizo-affective Mental Illness in this story, but I’m trying to make a case for psychoanalysis. I wouldn’t say that much about my mother like Freud did with many of the people he studied, but everything pretty much revolves around Leila. This is a no brainer for me, but for a therapist, it is only as easy as finding the language to clinically express my condition. It is not an inheritance issue. In fact I did not inherit a dominant gene for conscience from either parent; I’m recessive like my mom. That is why I ultimately believe that I’m Schizo-affective. At the very least I can say that I have a diagnosis. It is a good start since I am in therapy and the clinician has to start somewhere.

I started out saying I’m not predisposed for psychoanalysis, but on further consideration I realize that having a mental health diagnosis is an awfully good start.

In the blog I have written a lot about the conscience and that is why I have called this a retrospective

High School Diploma

My senior year at Thousand Oaks High School was not without it’s problems. Mr. Chevalier’s English class was after lunch. I ditched his class a lot. As a result of the absences I failed senior English. I was told I would not graduate college prep curriculum and because of my electives I was still going to graduate.

On graduation day I attended the exercises. I did not get a diploma. A teacher directed me to the office where I was to report my problem. There a counselor quickly wrote my name with a sharpie pen on a gold sheet of paper. It was a certificate of some kind. I could not read it because something was wrong. No other students were there and I didn’t see any other diplomas. Getting that certificate didn’t feel like graduating, and I didn’t go to any graduation parties. I really felt left out.

If you want to know what the trouble was try reading One Vote. It is the story about my sophomore year student government experience.