Category: Legal

Getting Over Tim Yates

I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.

One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.

Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.

I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.

Bicycle

My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.

Tim Yates And Legal Records

There are people who are reading to get information about Tim Yates Aka Hugh Farrell. For the serious reader, however, I would like to bring more than what I have written here. So, I would like to ask you to please contact the District Attorney’s Office for Ventura County. There you will discover that Tim possessed a fanatical interest in me. There is dramatic evidence that would support a premise that I was provoked to action, and from the evidence on record it may be understood that I had a reflex concerning his death. These are strong words. I would not say these things if I were not sure they could be supported with legal documentation.

Key Word: Justified

Why Tim Stalked

I transferred to UC Santa Cruz and became Tim’s housemate the 1990-1991 academic school year. We lived at the Sumner House. During that time I was meeting Leila. There are other posts that refer to this time; I painted a masterpiece while living there. One person commented that he thought I was Doctor. So, the circumstance was highly potent. Tim and Leila were boyfriend and girlfriend. One day when I was away from home at school or something, they had sex in my bed. One of Tim’s white blood cells got under my skin in which I formed a XYphoid just from contact with my beding. I can recall that Tim complained that his jaw hurt. And, that is the reason Tim obsessed about me.

One thing that causes a stalker type person is when they get addicted to Beauty.

A Sign Of The Times

I am experiencing the same sort of reality as everyone else. Graduating from high school in the second half of the eighties, community college, and University of California, I’m used to a much more private reality. The changes I’ve experienced since my younger days makes me think there is something wrong with me. I have no confidence. I’m constantly discerning my constituency as adversaries. And, I just have to realize that everyone is experiencing that. The times have changed.

There are three possible factors that could have influenced society. They are probably obvious. Starting in 1988 new born children are given a vaccine immunizing them against chicken pox ( https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chickenpox#Vaccine). The second possible factor responsible for changing society is the change in our cash currency. The money was changed in 1997. All the bills used to look like the one dollar bills we see today. The new bills are “golden.” My feeling is that society went from Capitalism to Socialism. To give you an idea of how wrong the new money is, let me just say, “you send the bill to congress.” I am referring to the disposition of the society based on the change in the common currency. The last factor to consider why there is a difference in our society from my youth is the internet.

I’m saying that I have a mental illness when in fact there is a major difference in society that has affected everyone. It is a sign of the times.

Rods Phenomenon

The rod is a symptom of a Table. I had a Table. It was subtracted and the Rod phenomenon went away. All that’s left of the flying rod is the number 54. I learned about the rods on the History channel. I have written other posts here at Gevluef about a table. It is a reason to feel worried.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rod_(optics)

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Comment: May 14, 2024: It is presumed that the DSM IV is a Rod. The date for that presumption is November 10th, 2023

Husker Du

Doing a search for “Husker Du Zen Arcade” you will find someplace to get the music streamed. This Husker Du link is for the album Zen Arcade. I’m not sure if you can hear the music here. The Wikipedia page tells way more than you need to know about the album. Really, they are just talking about what it is like to have chosen left; a kind of philosophy. I have continued to be supportive for these people by writing about the advance directive. This music is good listening if you want to think about crying.

The sound of the music is really trebley. Give it a chance, the type of sound grows on you. The words are the most dramatic feature of this ground breaking album.

The Landfill

I have given this post a Tag: Lithographic, Printmaking. Although there are four other posts on this subject here at Gevluef. Use Search, “Horsechestnut” to get the others. UC Santa Cruz has a lot of limestone for fine art printing. It is a major collection, and a reason to go to UC Santa Cruz – or not. They have a landfill.

I saved quite a lot of horsechestnut seeds from Seattle which I brought with me on my vacation to Taos and Chico California. During my vacation I determined the seeds would most benefit the lithography studio at UC Santa Cruz. At UCSC there is an excellent collection of lithographic limestone for printing Art. The infused fresh water would be good for them since they are fine porous limestone and they absorb water from the printing process. So, I mailed the horsechestnut seeds to the UCSC lithographic studio. That was the beginning of the problem.

It was the summer session at UCSC in 2001 and the Teacher’s Assistant received my collection marked as “ART SUPPLY.” He opened the package and the plastic tub containing the seeds. Then he said quietly, “I’ve been had!” He didn’t even look at the paperwork; he just threw everything away as if he wanted no part of it. There were over fifty seeds in that collection. That’s enough to make sweet water for lots of printmaking sessions. But the highly valued seeds went to the landfill instead. I have to make it clear to the reader that I intended the seed collection to be used at the lithography studio. When I am asked if I put the horsechestnut seeds in the landfill, I tell people, “I can’t do it.” If you are from Santa Cruz and blame me for this problem, I am sorry. I have had horsechestnut seed infused water in my body. I have some concerns about the landfill. I have to deal with the unexpected outcome of the landfill because the TA wasn’t interested in learning what the seeds were.

I imagine that the seeds have made the landfill fresh and sweet, and that the people in Santa Cruz have trouble with it leading to the body. They were thrown away in 2001, so there is an entire section of the landfill affected; but, that they were buried long ago. There are some things to consider about this problem, but you must think that our cash-bills have horsechestnut seed as a fundamental element in the cash design – perhaps it is the ink or the paper.

The TA eventually found out that something went wrong and learned about the seeds after the fact. He has visited Seattle Washington where the seeds grow in the wild. At this late date, I have had the expectation that he introduce horsechestnut seed into the lithography studio like I planned; but, I have not been satisfied as to any progress toward my original intention.