Category: Philosophy

Getting Over Tim Yates

I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.

One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.

Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.

I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.

Bicycle

My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.

Tim Yates And Legal Records

There are people who are reading to get information about Tim Yates Aka Hugh Farrell. For the serious reader, however, I would like to bring more than what I have written here. So, I would like to ask you to please contact the District Attorney’s Office for Ventura County. There you will discover that Tim possessed a fanatical interest in me. There is dramatic evidence that would support a premise that I was provoked to action, and from the evidence on record it may be understood that I had a reflex concerning his death. These are strong words. I would not say these things if I were not sure they could be supported with legal documentation.

Key Word: Justified

Why Tim Stalked

I transferred to UC Santa Cruz and became Tim’s housemate the 1990-1991 academic school year. We lived at the Sumner House. During that time I was meeting Leila. There are other posts that refer to this time; I painted a masterpiece while living there. One person commented that he thought I was Doctor. So, the circumstance was highly potent. Tim and Leila were boyfriend and girlfriend. One day when I was away from home at school or something, they had sex in my bed. One of Tim’s white blood cells got under my skin in which I formed a XYphoid just from contact with my beding. I can recall that Tim complained that his jaw hurt. And, that is the reason Tim obsessed about me.

One thing that causes a stalker type person is when they get addicted to Beauty.

Preparations – Surrealism

As they developed their philosophy, they believed that Surrealism would advocate the idea that ordinary and depictive expressions are vital and important, but that the sense of their arrangement must be open to the full range of imagination according to the Hegelian Dialectic. They also looked to the Marxist dialectic and the work of such theorists as Walter Benjamin and Herbert Marcuse.

Comment: August 29, 2017; this picture is here because Walter Benjamin – depicting a cosmological situation. The picture here is a general idea.

This quote was taken from the Wikipedia page for Surrealism. Though not explicitly stated, Surrealism might represent the way it looks after passing through an hour glass from reality to the outside. Interestingly, going through a point in time shouldn’t be easy. And in such a case, becoming there probably should be preceeded by a great creative force so that the person experiencing that outside will have the energy and tools to exist there. Perhaps then a person would make one’s self. In the next post I did such a thing. I may have had Surrealism to work with. Surrealism seems to indicate that such a passing is possible and that the Surrealist Artist has contributed to the individual’s composition either prior to, with resistance, or after, in the form of content for one to use in their creation of the self.

This is no ordinary event. The Philosophy of Leibniz should make up the reader who thinks this is an inappropriate post. He said that where the monad doesn’t exist for the individual, that they rely on God.

Visit this post: Bradley Butcher who shares his opinion of Surrealism.
This link is to Cognitive Thinking here on Gevluef from November 7, 2006. It is suggesting “outside” is relative to the father via a discussion on Spinoza.
Another post where I discuss “leave” called Were Getting Along rather abstractly.

Comment; January 19, 2023: This brief explanation of Surrealism is along the same thinking as in the movie Avatar.

Locating Blog Content – Goo

There has been recent interest for my accounting of the event at the Sonic Youth concert from the Summer of 1990. I have written about it, although it is hard to find: 2013/03/18/9192. This event has had a major effect on my life after which I went to UC Santa Cruz. The post gives the badly needed account of what exactly happened, and what was going through my mind. This event was one of the circumstances I was dealing with during my studies at college. Since I got kicked out of the concert, it is perhaps the “out” perspective that lead to the masterpiece painting I have mentioned in many of my posts at Gevluef.

I am very lucky that I aquired a XYphoid, a somewhere the female in the story has had for the management of her concerns.

I have considered contributing to the Wikipedia page for Goo. The link is: Goo (album). And there was a second tour in Europe in which a documentary was made: 1991: The Year Punk Broke . It is David Markey’s documentary of life on the road with Sonic Youth and Nirvana during their tour of Europe in late 1991.

Hegel

Phenomenology of Spirit

This is supposed to be read as an experience. The philosophy manifests from his rhetoric. Below is a sample of his original writting. Try to get Hegel’s primary source if you want to read him:

313. Now however much the external shape could express the inner individuality only insofar as the external shape is neither an organ nor an activity, and thereby only insofar as it is a whole at rest, still it would then conduct itself as a durably existing thing which should have motionlessly received into its own passive existence the inner as something alien. It thereby would have become the sign of the inner – an external contingent expression, whose actual aspect is on its own meaningless, a language whose sounds and sound- combinations are not the real thing itself but are intertwined with it through free arbitrary choice and are contingent for that language.

Comment: Gevluef, March 25, 2016; please visit the Phocomelia picture: https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2012/05/30/phocomelia/