This is my chance to share a personal insight. It is about me. There is a therapeutic value to blogging. And that’s a good thing.
The no brainer is that the Getty helped me paint. I went to Kresge though. The Architectural intentions of Kresge was to determine the amount of money J Paul Getty Jr. paid. Even while at Kresge I was identified by Kresge staff as Elwood’s grandson.
The other rebuttal about my last post; the family was told that Elwood committed suicide. Well no. He never owned a gun.
This family is so sickening that all I see is a mess. I got a mother who as a teenager had some money coming to her. Restitution from the Getty. J Paul Getty Jr. paid Francis Beeks to kill her dad Elwood who was building a wing at one of the Southern California airplane factories.
My Father blew-it though. He offended gas before I was born (Edit note: It is believed his 1961 VW Bug was melted down on March 18, 2018). J Paul Getty was off. My father blew-it. This was so terrible my father’s mom fabricated a story about Arlene’s father being murdered to prevent herself from learning about her son ruining a car. When she got close to the truth she would say, “I don’t know anything about that;” thinking the problem is on my mother’s side. She wanted to get out of the way. This was particularly dramatic for my dad’s mom because she was born in Pittsburgh Texas; all Getty oil. She never exactly found out about dad. She didn’t like me, and father didn’t like me either.
If you can understand this scenario you could maybe help me. All these people are gone. I paid J Paul Getty’s bill in the form of philanthropy to all my family members; 2B.
I’m so disillusioned with this family. I give, and I give my money on behalf of the Getty to my family. I had the nerve to be formally trained in fine Art. I painted a great painting. I’m satisfied with it.
With what you know about the Pope Valley Baby and a little more thinking, you could realize that I have an aversion to the condition of pregnancy. The baby forms more and more like what the Pope Valley Baby looks like. I relapse because “baby” as a cohort has a lot of power.
Up until this time, I just avoided expected mothers. Now that the Pope Valley Baby is appropriate I might be cured of my phobia.
Please read my older post on pregnancy. This was when I thought about the condition the clearest: https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2009/02/23/pregnancy-2/
Comment: September 13, 2024: This was one of the problems I had at UC Santa Cruz. What a relief I don’t have this problem anymore.
This Crowns Classic Shadow longhorn bull picture is here to show that I’m something more than NO. I wrote about the Texas Secret. The Texans coined me a secret because of my painting. I have apparently expressed my father’s bad appropriately. I didn’t really explain why it is called a secret; it is just what I heard from the Texans when concerning JEFF.
Image from NBC News March 25, 2013
JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena
Another task for the Lancer 99 speakers is to recone the speakers. JBL has a kit. A professional will have to install it though.
It was suggested, for buying vintage equipment to photograph the serial number, check to see if it was stolen. The discussion is here: http://forums.officer.com/t138114/
Buy a sound card. Sound cards like the ASUS Xonar DS PCI Sound Card – 7.1 Channel, are aimed mainly at music enthusiasts rather than gamers.
This card has a lot of pins for the computer’s socket. I think this card may be more versatile then a card with fewer pins. I am not a professional, that is just my gut feeling.
This is the exact speakers I grew up listening to. If the plan is for me to get my original speakers, I will have to settle for the same kind.
JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena. These speakers need a two way crossover. This item on ebay: https://www.ebay.com/itm/236247349294
I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.
One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.
Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.
I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.
My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.
I am submitting my final result to Gevluef. There was a plan for additional layers of paint, for example a layer of wax medium, but due to the fact that the figure is a female and not me, I decided against it. This painting has a strong NARRATIVE. That I’m most proud of. It is also a good example of a picture in which a girl would use as a fire-wall; see Make Me A Picture.
Comment: This painting iterated when Joyce saw it on March 8, 2023
It is a family directive for me to learn about brooms for sweeping, broom making and broom history. My local news paper VCStar has an article, Yardsmart: How early brooms developed from sorghum. And below is a picture from a blog where broom making is a family business.
I have to do some writing about Thomas Pynchon. I’m going to explore this website: Thomas Pynchon. Interestingly, I mused about this author years ago in a post called: Thomas Pynchon on my Gevluef blog where I establish that he is doing good relative to his family and Democracy.
I have much more to say about him. There may be a newer post around July 2024, where I make some notes to myself about the things he is dealing with.
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