Gun History

I took the Bus from Chico California to Seattle Washington; my second entrance. There was a gun on that bus. And so, the story goes from there. It is hard to realize just what happens with a gun. I presume that none of it is good.

I swelled. My legs were swollen. It felt like I was walking through clay. That day I was a danger to self. I lay in a ditch in someone’s front yard until 5:00 when the homeowner called for me to go to the hospital.

It was miraculous what they did for me. Staff asked to give me an IV for hydration. Barely conscious, I asked for a pretty girl to administer the IV. I was probably in heaven. I fell back asleep and didn’t wake up for a while. I had the IV.

I was on the Psych ward when I woke up. I looked down at my legs and they were normal. What a relief I got the help that the hospital offers for dehydration. My legs felt like they were mine. The most interesting development was that the gun was a part of the body.

Years later I was examined by a staff person who observed I had a little swelling in my right leg just above the foot. I could feel it at times where there was a degree or a gun. I had a small amount of Serzone which is no longer on the market, and I thought that the spot was from that.

A gun is part of the pathology that I observed in my body and where I realize that I have a remainder. I can reason these issues are from going from Chico to Seattle. All this is just since late summer 2001.

Downsiders – all my friends are fish

Below are links to Gevluef posts concerning the Downsiders – all my friends are fish:

California Lottery Helps Kids in School

I’ve been meaning to share my insight about the California Lottery. We voted for the Lottery because we wanted to help our kids in school.

To help a student having trouble in school, you tell the lottery staff just the address of the student. The Lottery makes that address a winner; thus relaxing real estate. The student benefits by doing better in school.

https://www.google.com/search?q=CustomerService%40calottery.com

To send the student’s address visit: https://www.calottery.com/contact-us

Rebuttal from family

The no brainer is that the Getty helped me paint. I went to Kresge though. The Architectural intentions of Kresge was to determine the amount of money J Paul Getty Jr. paid. Even while at Kresge I was identified by Kresge staff as Elwood’s grandson.

The other rebuttal about my last post; the family was told that Elwood committed suicide. Well no. He never owned a gun.

https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2021/08/15/elwoods-question/

Healing from J Paul Getty Jr.

This family is so sickening that all I see is a mess. I got a mother who as a teenager had some money coming to her. Restitution from the Getty. J Paul Getty Jr. paid Francis Beeks to kill her dad Elwood who was building a wing at one of the Southern California airplane factories.

My Father blew-it though. He offended gas before I was born (Edit note: It is believed his 1961 VW Bug was melted down on March 18, 2018). J Paul Getty was off. My father blew-it. This was so terrible my father’s mom fabricated a story about Arlene’s father being murdered to prevent herself from learning about her son ruining a car. When she got close to the truth she would say, “I don’t know anything about that;” thinking the problem is on my mother’s side. She wanted to get out of the way. This was particularly dramatic for my dad’s mom because she was born in Pittsburgh Texas; all Getty oil. She never exactly found out about dad. She didn’t like me, and father didn’t like me either.

If you can understand this scenario you could maybe help me. All these people are gone. I paid J Paul Getty’s bill in the form of philanthropy to all my family members; 2B.

I’m so disillusioned with this family. I give, and I give my money on behalf of the Getty to my family. I had the nerve to be formally trained in fine Art. I painted a great painting. I’m satisfied with it.

Pope Valley Baby Cont.

With what you know about the Pope Valley Baby and a little more thinking, you could realize that I have an aversion to the condition of pregnancy. The baby forms more and more like what the Pope Valley Baby looks like. I relapse because “baby” as a cohort has a lot of power.

Up until this time, I just avoided expected mothers. Now that the Pope Valley Baby is appropriate I might be cured of my phobia.

Please read my older post on pregnancy. This was when I thought about the condition the clearest: https://gevluef.wordpress.com/2009/02/23/pregnancy-2/

Comment: September 13, 2024: This was one of the problems I had at UC Santa Cruz. What a relief I don’t have this problem anymore.

Crowns Classic Shadow

This Crowns Classic Shadow longhorn bull picture is here to show that I’m something more than NO. I wrote about the Texas Secret. The Texans coined me a secret because of my painting. I have apparently expressed my father’s bad appropriately. I didn’t really explain why it is called a secret; it is just what I heard from the Texans when concerning JEFF.

Image from NBC News March 25, 2013

JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena | eBay

JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena

Another task for the Lancer 99 speakers is to recone the speakers. JBL has a kit. A professional will have to install it though.

It was suggested, for buying vintage equipment to photograph the serial number, check to see if it was stolen. The discussion is here: http://forums.officer.com/t138114/

Buy a sound card. Sound cards like the ASUS Xonar DS PCI Sound Card – 7.1 Channel, are aimed mainly at music enthusiasts rather than gamers.

This card has a lot of pins for the computer’s socket. I think this card may be more versatile then a card with fewer pins. I am not a professional, that is just my gut feeling.

This is the exact speakers I grew up listening to. If the plan is for me to get my original speakers, I will have to settle for the same kind.

JBL Lancer 99 Vintage HI Fidelity Speakers LE14A Athena. These speakers need a two way crossover. This item on ebay: https://www.ebay.com/itm/236247349294

Getting Over Tim Yates

I’ve been reflecting on my recent history, the years from 2011 till 2015; and, I want to share my insight about why I had so much trouble. As of today, I have thinned out my Will in which I have gotten rid of the smoking guns that have caused problems for me. Since when though has matters of the Will been so dramatic that subtraction would relieve me of any further problems? And so, I have to resolve that my mental illness which was compounded by the association with Tim Yates, also mentally ill, has been the main fault. These problems are a manifestation of the situation. Again, I have experienced the pathology of the complex association with Tim.

One example, the most prominent is my having a xiphoid. Just that alone is cause for problems; see the Stone Roses. From there I have taken on a disparity of his issues making my association with Tim much more dependent. He had a chemical imbalance from Leila. He had Schizophrenia because of Chrissy. And, all of this about Tim exacerbated my experience and the experience of those I affected.

Just to say that Tim compounded my mental illness is insightful, but to realize that my problems were an expression of our relationship relieves me of the guilt I feel about the terrible things that have happened in the years preceding his death.

I am doing much better. The circumstances have changed a lot. One major difference I am able to notice is that people are more accepting of me. So, I am getting along better. I am not having problems any more. I am so thankful all I have to deal with is my mental illness. And, in my opinion, it’s a good one.

Bicycle

My father stole a bicycle when he was a boy. That affects me in the form of a cognitive imbalance. The matter is concerning a possibility. The badly needed capacity to reason is missing in my perspective. The person discerns the facts from someone else’s possibility. I can only hope that Spinoza provides the context when I am in need of support. Below is a bicycle. Although it is not the main part of the composition, the bicycle is present. Lately I’ve been thinking I would like to do a painting of a bicycle.